Silent Night.

The last four or five hours of my life have been spent on a Twilight marathon. Never in my life have I wanted to kill myself more. I am pretty sure I've just been trying to avoid the thoughts that the person I love, is currently dancing and having a great time at her semi-formal with a different person that she loves more than I. It's killing me... By the way, suicide watch began again a couple of weeks ago. Wish me luck on not dying? thanks.

Dam, I Need to Update

Hey! Its like 6 months since my last post, and I feel awful about that. I'll just fill you in on my life right now, hope you can catch up to the crazy months I've had.
So anyway, it's now sophomore year for me. I have a girlfriend (yes, a GIRLfriend) whose not really a girlfriend, since she has a boyfriend at another school... Who I get really jealous of whenever I see or hear of them together. All but two of my classes completely suck, and I have no electives... I have tried to commit suicide four times in the past months. And, I'm learning how to play the bassoon. Questions? No? Yes? Maybe?
Feel free to ask anything... that's the only update I'm giving you :)